Epilogue : Hurt

it sucks to say that, I am a total loser when it comes to the business of love. 
it has been the fourth time and the third time with the same man.
i kept on giving him chances,

was it a foolish act?

what were his faults? he cheats.
twice. with the same woman.

he left for the first time
and came saying 

"I realized it all then when I left you"

"I loved you and still loving you, when i thought i didn't" 

glad he came back to his senses
open my arms widely
accepting him again

shall i call it was an affair?
he didn't really break up with that woman.
made a promise that he would leave her for good
after our big tests. 

promises were made to be broken
indeed.

after almost a year,
we kept it all hidden behind the curtains
but i was suffocating. 

i needed to breathe.
he isn't doing as his promise!
so i done that
for him.

i pitied the woman
and myself.
i let him choose
he said he chose me
so why was it so hard for him
to let go?

men say that they don't know how women's brains work.
do they even know theirs? 

this blog is solemnly for me to pour out my feelings,
i've been in a quite huge stress and i trusts no one.
didn't want to burden my loved ones with my
foolish love story. so here it goes nothing
yet everything to me.